Tuesday, April 13, 2004 Goodbye Spring Break

Its incredible how badly I wanted to make my Spring Break unforgettable. I did things that I normally would never do; I've allowed myself to go crazy. To be honest, it scared me. But, it definitely was a blast!    Tuesday, Friday, and Sunday I partied. Tuesday and Sunday were parties I threw. Tuesday and Friday were both 2 days long. Wednesday we went to Disneyland. I wished I partied all week! Crazy, you think...yes. But at the same time, I thought- fack, its Spring Break!    I met very intriguing people this week: The Speedster and The Graphic. These people helped make my Break what it was. The Speedster was especially unforgettable. Here was a person who could easily be seen as one thing. When I got to know this person, I saw many qualities that could've easily been missed by those who misjudged this person. This person was more multi-dynamic than thought of. One word about his person- amazing.    The Graphic was very easy going and socialable. The Graphic was a person that most people would just look at. But The Graphic was bursting with personality that was often overseen. Though this person had one big weakness, personality was the strength.    My friends and I were out of control. I am honestly afraid of what became of us during this week. I am afraid of continuing the behaviors that we've picked up. It’s already become too much for me to handle... and I want it to slow down. I have to admit that it was an incredibly fun ride. But a person can't live life in an amusement park. We still need the stability and comforts of our homes. It’s the only place where we feel safe. I need to feel safe. Heck- it was what it was. I can't say if I'll ever regret this party. I hope I never will. I want to remember it for what it was- pure and absolute bliss. A moment is only a moment. We only get so many unforgettable moments in a lifetime.