Saturday, September 11, 2004 Idiot I....

I feel like such an idiot. Why am I letting myself go and do these things that I know will only hurt me. I guess, maybe, I've just realized that it will all be over soon. As all things, this too shall pass. So there is no reason to care anymore. I don't want to care, I wish terribly that I didn't. Emotions are a terrible thing. They drive you against the logical reasoning of your mind. That is a very dangerous thing...It's all make-believe anyway.