Thursday, January 13, 2005 Buzz

Life has reached yet another standstill. I always end up here. I mean, I know that life should be made out of a series of ups and downs, but my ups seem to be really high and then my downs are really freakin' down. Maybe I simply have ADD and I can't hold my attention for very long. I don't know.    Work today was stressful. In a strange way that statement doesn't make sense. The work that I do is easy as pie, and any three year old can do it...yet I found myself pulling my hair out at the end of the shift today. I think I got tired talking to people and their hard to crack attitudes.    My work forces me to compromise with other peoples' stupidity. I just wanted some silence for once. Instead I have to face either, a billion voices, or boredom and all its glory. Ha. I find I place myself the same spot over and over, even when I should be smart enough (from experience) to keep away. But, no.  Gosh, I'm afraid that such pain is some sick addiction of mine...but I doubt it- because I'd rather not be here. I got electrocuted three times the other day. I was cooking sausages on my Forman Grill, gaddammit! I was using a metal tong and was flipping the wieners when all of a sudden my arm surged and my toe went crazy! I didn't know what the F had just happened. To test even further, I touched a sausage with the tong- BUZZ. Then, I switched hands and felt the same buzz. To test yet even more, I flipped the sausages with a plastic spatula and- no buzz. Yup. I got electrocuted. Three effin times. It is on such days that I let out a gigantic sigh.