Monday, October 04, 2004 Irritation

Current mood:  irate I think I get irritated too easily sometimes. Especially these days after I've been blown to kingdom come by painful situations. I just came home irritated because of thoughts that I can't help thinking.  I keep thinking that, the fact is no one cares and people like to take advantage of me...I dunno, its very possible that this is not true...but I just can't tell anymore. I care! I often care to the point where its ridiculous.  I mean, sometimes people even tell me things that convince me further that I mean nothing; that's why. I've lost my sense of self worth. Heck, blame it on the current events of my life. Its because of this that I suddenly start thinking too much and feel hurt. Then, I just have to remove myself because of this irritation so that I can deal with it.  I dunno.  I'm sorry.  Really, I am- I just don't want to be confused anymore.