Thursday, May 20, 2004 Ahhhhhh....Like the good 'ol days

Recently life has been playing the same show over and over again. I had long been awaiting the show to retire itself and put on a new spectacle. Occasionally it would trick me into thinking that something beautiful and new was about to happen, only to leave me hurt, disappointed, and above all- bored.    I could not shake the boredom for the longest time! I was beginning to worry about the direction in which my life had decided to take. I know I am not at a complete standstill, though I feel incredibly stagnant at times.    Today was certainly refreshing. I was able to further build new friendships, which is something you can never have too much of. I was sitting at a table with two people who have remained merely acquaintances for quite sometime. I figured, hell, its time to build up on these potential new friends of mine. It worked. It’s been a long time since I've laughed as hard as I did tonight.    These kids were quite a riot. I felt rather nostalgic and somewhat sad that I had missed out on earlier times with these guys. I can't help but wonder how it feels to have a circle of friends that lasted you since you were little. It’s an experience that I had never felt- being in a military family and all. I guess this is as close as it will ever get for me.    BTW- The Speedster sucks. No need to go on with this one. Being this person's friend just makes me sick of worry. I don't know how healthy it is for me, mentally and physically, to be friends with this person. The Speedster doesn't seem to care about how actions subsequently affect others. I begin to think more and more that this person is rather self involved.    Bring on the good days...