Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Promised Land, Dec 9, 2006 , 2:27 PM

why can't it be perfect...

to where i can go to one place, make my dream come true...but not be alone doing it.

i have a fan base at work, who are avid veronica mars fans, and who place me on a pendestal whenever they get the chance. it is they, that i feel am letting down.  they're always asking me when i'll be on tv again, but i can't assure them any given time.
i need to move to LA.
the part that kills me the most is that i must literally do it alone. and im so sad. because when i think i found something wonderful, i realize i'd have to leave it here.
damn.
damn it!!!
damn it...
a friend wants to come, but im not sure i can rely on that person...and that person has very selfish motives that involve the opposite sex...so i doubt ill invite that person to live with me.
its either i stay here, depressed over a bleak future...
or drop everything, literally, that i care about here, and move on.
im going to cry now.

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