I had met someone, who grew up the same way I did, with the same beliefs I did, and even had the same thinking patterns that I did. This person had the same morals I did, and even the same ambition.
I thought it would be perfect, and it absolutely was...for a little while. And then my weaknesses were fed forcefully back to me. Insecurity, mistrust, jealousy, and wile, all qualities that I had fought inside myself, and I'm sure, my exes had grown tired of dealing with.
The sad part is, because these weaknesses hit so close to home...I was willing to overlook them; to forgive them...because I understood them.
Unfortunately, the other me, was not as forgiving. Could I not forgive myself?
I feel so shattered for not even I could not tolerate my weaknesses as they pummeled my heart furiously.
In the past, I was never sure if I could ever be with myself, because of what I know I am capable of.
This blog makes me uncomfortable because of its vulnerability. But, maybe I should try to give myself a chance. I've already learned a lot.
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