downward spiral, Apr 25, 2008, 7:15 AM

i don't know what to do.

i feel like i'm just losing people faster than i can gain them up here.

i need help letting san diego go i guess. but it keeps coming back and being so wonderful to me...or reminds me of how wonderful it was.
i wish i believed it was all a facade.
i just feel like its too late. like, i've already cut ties. and now that i've cut ties with someone really vital to me, it just feels like i've thrown my self into negative numbers with the amount of support i have.
i feel so weak. someone tell me how to survive this.

i just spent a day with old friends and then had to say goodbye to them again.  i love that i see them, but also hate it, because it reminded me of being so happy...