Well, seems at the dawning of the next year my brother will be leaving the military. Which leads to the possibility of him having to relocate for work. Though my house will still be available for a few months, for me to live in after, there are high stakes that it will have to be sold. Which also means two things for me:
1) Live on my own.
I can either run my house with the help of 3 to 4 roomates. This could mean halting college and working full time again; maybe even halting my future-or leading to a different and unexpected future. I'm not sure I can keep up with a maintaining a household with a bunch of roomates who may or may not own up to their part. However, if my house is sold, I would have to find elsewhere. This would be the first time that I would truly be on my own and it scares me a little...I'm not sure I have enough strength in myself to do this.
or
2) Live with my mom in San Francisco.
This way, I could finish college with the financial benefits of having a parental figure supporting me and there are a billion Pharmacy Technician jobs up there. One of the major downsides is living with a parental figure again; and one who I don't quite get along with. There's also the possibility of beginning a new life, with new friends, and a new environment. I can't imagine being without my San Diego friends here...another major downside, this will be a very hard transition that I'm not sure I want to do.
Those are it. 2 options...sigh. I can't believe it. The end of this year has suddenly began to speed its coming. This is going to be a battle between my heart and my head. I just hope that, maybe my brother will get a job in San Diego and we'll be able to keep our house. He's narrowed out his job options to be either in Vacaville, Chico, or here. I also want to push for Joe and Rachel to begin their new life and start the family that they want...which means, no me. I think there's not much I can do but expect to make one of the two decisions above. My heart...or my head...
I could always strike it rich in Hollywood. Ha.
1) Live on my own.
I can either run my house with the help of 3 to 4 roomates. This could mean halting college and working full time again; maybe even halting my future-or leading to a different and unexpected future. I'm not sure I can keep up with a maintaining a household with a bunch of roomates who may or may not own up to their part. However, if my house is sold, I would have to find elsewhere. This would be the first time that I would truly be on my own and it scares me a little...I'm not sure I have enough strength in myself to do this.
or
2) Live with my mom in San Francisco.
This way, I could finish college with the financial benefits of having a parental figure supporting me and there are a billion Pharmacy Technician jobs up there. One of the major downsides is living with a parental figure again; and one who I don't quite get along with. There's also the possibility of beginning a new life, with new friends, and a new environment. I can't imagine being without my San Diego friends here...another major downside, this will be a very hard transition that I'm not sure I want to do.
Those are it. 2 options...sigh. I can't believe it. The end of this year has suddenly began to speed its coming. This is going to be a battle between my heart and my head. I just hope that, maybe my brother will get a job in San Diego and we'll be able to keep our house. He's narrowed out his job options to be either in Vacaville, Chico, or here. I also want to push for Joe and Rachel to begin their new life and start the family that they want...which means, no me. I think there's not much I can do but expect to make one of the two decisions above. My heart...or my head...
I could always strike it rich in Hollywood. Ha.
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