This sucks. I feel as though I've fallen in pit. And, I feel so heavy, as though gravity is increased in this pit. I feel so sad. Just so, incredibly sad.
Sigh... It won't matter to them whether I go or not. And then, on the other hand, my needs are just a big joke...
Bestfriends spend personal time together. Lovers spend personal time together. Things are done with, and for, each other...I am a part of neither of these. I am in a different and somewhat cursed plane as of now; where I hold a title, but am not a true member of either social construct.
I float.
But, I long, so badly, to be able to nestle somewhere. And feel loved. Feel safe. Feel happy.
Sigh... It won't matter to them whether I go or not. And then, on the other hand, my needs are just a big joke...
Bestfriends spend personal time together. Lovers spend personal time together. Things are done with, and for, each other...I am a part of neither of these. I am in a different and somewhat cursed plane as of now; where I hold a title, but am not a true member of either social construct.
I float.
But, I long, so badly, to be able to nestle somewhere. And feel loved. Feel safe. Feel happy.
1:17 AM
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