Reality Hits, Nov 4, 2006 , 12:32 AM

i walked into the livingroom and saw no one I knew...that's when I began bawling...

not like a child...but like a grown woman who lost something that she'd forced herself to deny for so long, but realized meant so much.
his songs still play in my car all the time..stirring up memories of the best times of my life...he wasn't there to greet me on the spur of the moment this time...when I was out on the prowl, looking for something exciting.  we were always looking for excitement. This time I felt...nothing...nothing.
i was left alone again for the second time...and I didn't realize how much I would miss him....again.   I miss him again.  My friend.  Who I pretended wasn't my friend for too long.  But he is.
And I miss him already.  Even though he just left 3 days ago, and that he probably doesn't care, or ever really cared about me.
I made him my friend anyway. Now my friend is gone.  And he plans to be gone for a long time...
what are we to do now that he's decided to leave us again?
with him..we were more whole than we seem to be now.
Man, did I bawl.

151, Nov 3, 2006 , 8:49 PM

it was the funniest thing. 
I took a shot of Bacardi 151 for the first time in at least a year and my throat refused to swallow it.  so, after it splashed around the back of my nostrils, burning as it did, and under and around my taste-sensitive tongue, for what felt like an eternity, I swallowed one shot.
of course I inhaled afterwards, and with it, a burning vapor wooshed into my lungs.  it felt like i smoked 20 cigarettes in 10 seconds. gah, my throat. it hurts.
that was fun.
I wish I had some sort of chaser. ow.

It is My Nature (Reply with Who You Are!, Oct 21, 2006 , 9:44 AM

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dancing, Oct 21, 2006 , 12:18 AM

i wanna.  let's do it. shake da booty.
man.
talk about lameness tonight. im in my room watching degrassi and kevin smith is dancing. 
everyone is dancing.
pooooooopty peupty panks!!!!!!

Love is in the Foam, Oct 14, 2006 ,1:17 PM

Yeah. I bet.

CAN YOU PLEASE,
ALL OF YOU...

SEND ME YOUR PHONE NUMBERS AGAIN.
MY RAZR FELL IN THE FOAM IN THE ASTROJUMP WHEN I SLID AND ATE IT HARD.
IM SO SAD...IF YOU LOVE ME AND WANT ME TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU AND TEXT YOU ABOUT THE AWESOMEST THINGS, PLS GIVE ME YOU'RE CELLS.
I'm sad. wah. please.
you can text me your numbers, too. im using one of mac's little prize phones...but i cant let him know that i'm using it because i don't have his number! rahhh!
So, last night was really rad.  It's just too bad it rained.  I still have a keg if any of you are interested. HURRY BEFORE IT SPOILS!
Being 24 is wierd. It's like, almost being 25 'n shit...like, that's wierd.
kishyou.

SEE ME ON TV, Oct 10, 2006 ,4:08 AM

    TONIGHT AT 9PM ON THE OLD WB---NOW CW


ON VERONICA MARS!

I hope it doesn't suck that much.

For all I know, I'll probably look like a freak'n fatty in my horizontal stripes and have only 2 minutes airtime.

WE SHALL SEE WON'T WE!!??

queef, Oct 7, 2006, 2:04 PM

is a fun game and the rabbit habit isn't all that.

Thank you. hearts.